Surayah Pierce:
1. The NU Support Group – Allan Nason Prize winner
Caitlyn George:
1. Strangers by 30
Roree Stewart:
1. White Liar
Talin ‘Maggie’ Teague:
1. Letters from Afar
Characters:
Vincent, senior, 21-years-old, white, private, in PT gear
James, senior, Air Force, 21-years-old, white, staff sergeant, in an Air Force uniform
Frozan, senior, 26-years-old, Afghan, second lieutenant, in a Corp of Cadet OCP uniform
Preston, senior, 20-years-old, white, staff sergeant, in a Corps of Cadets uniform
Michael, junior, 21-years-old, African American, sergeant, in PT gear
Narrator
The group of Corps students in uniform stand at the back of the stage. Upstage five chairs face the audience. The students are shrouded in darkness, but a low light highlights the
Narrator: Good evening to you all and welcome to the NU Corps Support Group production. As a forewarning, this play will contain themes that can be found upsetting and uncomfortable, but these are true stories that need to be told. Thank you for listening tonight, and please keep an open mind to these experiences.
SCENE 1: FINDING NORWICH
PROJECTED ON SCREEN:
What brought you to Norwich University?
The word ‘family’ flashes all over the screen and then it fades back to the question.
(VINCENT and MICHAEL walk up to chairs. VINCENT sits in the seat to the far left while MICHAEL sits in the seat on the far right.)
VINCENT: My brother. I needed structure because I have ADHD, and I really struggle to focus on—on anything and I wanted to join the military. So, the structure of the Corps of Cadets and the availability of the Air Force and other services here really attracted me to this school, but coming here is probably one of my biggest regrets.
MICHAEL: What brought me was my aunt, she’s an NCO in the United States Army. She saw some shit that kind of made her want to chill out for like her last ten years. So, she works a HR job now for the Army, but her boss, who’s the inspector general for the Massachusetts Guard, is a Norwich grad. Big Norwich guy. Still has all his Norwich memorabilia in his office, still wears his ring. So, I spoke to him a few times. He was kind of all for it, like “This place is cool. You can go here. Try to become an officer. It’ll be fun. You know, it’ll probably be like bullshit for the first couple months.” Which it was. (Said matter of factly.) But, besides that, the fact that Norwich gave me a fat bag?
The words ‘financial aid’ and ‘false promises’ flit across the screen several times before they fade back to the question.
(PRESTON, FROZAN, and JAMES join VINCENT and MICHAEL at the chairs.)
FROZAN: Well, if I’m staying away from flowery responses, it was the full scholarship. Because economy, financial status, and financial stability play a huge role in terms of my education, and Norwich was one of the places that gave me a full scholarship. But that was not necessarily the main reason, I was determined to get an education. If it wasn’t Norwich, it would have been somewhere else. But I knew that I needed to get out of my country in order to pursue higher education. Norwich trusted me with the chance, I got the full scholarship, and now I’m here.
JAMES: So, initially, I came here because I wanted to play sports and, you know, like serve my country. But, as time went on, I realized that the athletic experience is full of shit here, and I’ve kind of talked about it to different people. But I ended up leaving sports my junior year. It’s not like on the players, it was like the coaching staff, that facilitates, that kind of toxic environment. But I’m happy, like where I’m going in life. I’m going out West to do work around nuclear missiles for the Air Force. It’s something that I’m passionate about, and, you know, obviously, I love our country and the people here in our country. So, I’m very happy, like where I’m going and like what I’m getting out of the Corps career-wise.
PRESTON: I came to Norwich University for two reasons: the first being that I was an Air Force Academy reject. There’s kind of a reputation for Norwich as being the Academy-rejects school. So, I came here because I was getting the same experience, trying to pursue an Air Force contract to be a pilot, and also because out of the other schools that I applied for and was accepted to, including Ivy Leagues, and local state schools, I received the most scholarship money that I would be able to use towards my education here.
The screen goes blank, and the Corps students get up from the chairs. They stand at the back of the stage again.
PROJECTED ON SCREEN:
What has the Corps environment been like for you?
The words ‘TOXIC’, ‘IMMATURE’, ‘SEXIST’, and ‘UNSAFE’ are presented on screen in bold. The words linger for several seconds before fading back to the question.
(All of the Corps students walk to the chairs and take a seat.)
JAMES: So, I think I got a lot out of the Corps my freshman year because I was in a very toxic environment. I wasn’t personally affected by the toxic environment because it was good to see what not to do. Kind of like a case study almost of like leadership.
MICHAEL: You can definitely tell when you find people who are trying to run from whatever they got going on, like within themselves, and people who use the Corps as a cover. And then people who are just in the Corps to benefit from it. We were talking about this in class, like, people who let the Corps go to their heads, and that’s kind of been what has ruined my experience a little bit. A lot of bad leaders and that’s from, in my opinion, that’s from like an objective perspective, not a subjective one. They just like demonstrate traits that would not be conducive to being a leader.
PRESTON: I was a part of the only majority female platoon at Norwich in fall of 2020 and, as a result of this, we were called the weak platoon, our own rook brothers threatened to leave because we weren’t “as capable as them.” They consistently insulted our female staff sergeant; they consistently harassed and bullied her because she wasn’t as good as our other cadre. We were seen as weak because we couldn’t keep up with the boys at PT because we were females. There would be consistent meetings between the “boys club” in our platoon that included many of our rook brothers because we weren’t good enough for them.
FROZAN: There was no gym in the village I grew up in. Well, there were a lot of things that we didn’t have, but the entire country thought gyms were a foreign concept. It was not part of the daily necessity. It was non-existent. So, for me to be put in a situation where I had to not only push myself physically but to be put against a man, it was like out of this world. I was like, “These people are crazy. What are they thinking?” I remember the first time my cadre asked me to run, and I couldn’t run; my form was so bad that they had to make me sit down and watch YouTube videos to learn how to run because the way I ran looked really funny, and I didn’t realize it. Obviously, it wasn’t just that, I was alien to this new environment and everyone else also thought, “Well, she’s an alien.” They didn’t know how to deal with me, I guess. And then there’s the culture of not being listened to. When I tried to talk to them, they kind of pushed me aside. So, I isolated myself; I shut down completely.
VINCENT: It’s been toxic and hostile. Definitely not what I signed up for and, so, I have tried—I’ve basically reverted my schedule to that of a normal student’s as much as I can. I don’t go to formations because it’s pointless, which I don’t get in trouble for. I don’t really do any of the Corps stuff other than some of the really important things like showing respect to other people, for example, Jeet, the guy that passed away two years ago now, he was a friend of mine, so I showed up to his echo taps, but other than that if it’s not important, like formation, you will not see me there.
PRESTON: I had a very abusive cadre. Both mentally and emotionally, and in some cases physically, though not to me. They were very vindictive, poorly behaved, and just terrible leaders from the outset, and you know coupled with the fact that we were all so isolated because of Covid, we weren’t fully permitted to leave unless for class, so we were constantly exposed to that abuse and maltreatment. I was also coming off a difficult period in my own life, mental health-wise, and had just barely recovered myself, so I ended up sliding back into a significant mental health decline. Another contribution from the Corps that I find that I will never ever pursue again, and will not recommend that anybody else pursue, is the gender dynamic.
(The lights fade out on the students. Everyone gets up except for VINCENT and JAMES.)
SCENE 2: Norwich Forever
(A single spotlight falls on VINCENT.)
VINCENT: I kind of want to talk about the sexual assault on campus.
(PRESTON joins VINCENT and JAMES at the chairs. The spotlight encases them all.)
VINCENT: It’s a really swept-under-the-rug topic, especially for men. I know a hand full of men, and I include myself in this, who have been sexually assaulted by women and nothing ever came of it. Like I’ve talked to all the correct people and heard nothing back about it, a lot of it was because they’re women who have done it.
PRESTON: As a female in the Corps, I am significantly more disrespected than I would have been in any other school, even in any other military program. I do have a long history of leadership and challenge and competition in military environments. I was a nationally recognized Colorguard commander. I lead multiple teams across the US, both physically and academically in military settings, and I have never had significant gender problems. Obviously, most females encounter some sort of gender problems in their lives, but they have not been nearly to the extent that they have in Norwich.
JAMES: I hadn’t really met someone before Vincent and I talked recently, in the past few weeks, who had also experienced sexual assault, um, from female to male. And it’s just like, no one really cares, as like being a guy. And especially since, I’m kind of a weird person in that, I’m a very emotionally sensitive person, but like, outwardly I present as this like big, strong white guy, and I’m just like, you know, that is part of me. But I’m also not really like that. And so, I usually just stay closed off to people because I figure, you know, if I don’t show my cards then they can’t say anything.
VINCENT: The women here have a lot more power than they know. There are two sides to that coin: there’s some that think they don’t have the power… so they don’t, but the women who realize that they are such a minority at this school can really take advantage of a lot of the men, and they do. It’s disgusting, but nothing—my friend over here is the only person on campus who I’ve been able to talk to about it, who’s actually understood it and has not only seen but lived what I’ve experienced. It’s something that I didn’t believe in before I came here, men being sexually assaulted. I was sexually assaulted by a girl on campus, and I got high fives for it; it was so disgusting.
JAMES: But, you know, when push comes to shove, it’s like what Vincent said, it’s celebrated. Like everyone thinks it’s awesome. Like the more sex you have to more it makes you a better human being. And it’s like, you know, obviously that’s not only ridiculous, but that promotes this mentality of it doesn’t matter how I have sex, like as long as I have more sex, like that makes me a better person, kind of. Which is just, I don’t know, like foul. About a month ago I told someone, like when they brought up sexual assault, I was like, “Yeah, you know, I was sexually assaulted, and it really negatively affected me for a while.” And they were like, “Oh, like what are you? A pussy?” And, so, it’s like, you know, what do you do? You just shut down and you don’t say anything.
PRESTON: There are significant instances where I find that I have to step in for young women, in particular freshman and sophomore women, for being belittled, run over, or completely ignored by their male peers or even their male superiors. If this is an environment in which we were supposed to be treated like the leaders that we are and that were supposed to be trained, and acknowledged as such, this environment would rank very low on a scale of 1 to 10.
(Beat)
I’ve had friends who have been chased or followed from the gym, back to barracks in the dark, out to their vehicles. There is a significant portion of this campus that covers up sexual assaults, sexual abuse, relationship abuse, emotional abuse, and I, in fact, was a victim of two separate sexual assault events by the same man on campus. There is quite a bit of manipulation between young female cadets and upperclassmen males, particularly in the chain of command, who take advantage of that as well.
JAMES: I didn’t know what had happened to me for a few years, you know? I always knew something was wrong, but similar to Vincent’s experience, it was how I lost my virginity. And, um, basically, there was a squad leader in charge of me. I was underage drinking off campus two years ago on Halloween. She was sober. And so, like, looking back now, I can see how predatory she was and how she searched me out throughout the night to make sure that I was under her supervision, you know, and in control. I can also see why there were good conditions for her to commit that crime. Uh, cause, like, I’m a law nerd, so I kinda look at it through a criminal lens. But, like, you know, she’s in charge of me first. So, she can use that against me to either silence me or try to encourage me to go with her, which she did.
PRESTON: The resources here regarding that sort of lack of safety for females and males are slim to none. Title IX, while something that is federally mandated, doesn’t tend to produce results that should be produced because much of what they encounter is hearsay. Much of what they encounter in an investigation is based, not so much on the personal recollection of an individual, but the evidence of what they can find, which is usually a back-and-forth he-said-she-said instance, making it an ineffective organization. There is no accountability on this campus whatsoever.
VINCENT: I think there’s two systems: there’s the front, the system that we all know and live by, and that system is put in place not for the students, but for the school so that the school can cover its own ass. So, they can say they have this system put in place, but really, it’s a merry-go-round of information where you have an issue, you put it in the system, and the most it’s going to do is come right back to you. Whether that’s to bite you in the ass or just to remind you that if this is going to happen, there will be zero repercussions. That’s the first system and the second system is like a borderline conspiracy, but it seems to be that people who get in trouble get talked to behind closed doors. I wouldn’t even say it’s a slap on the wrist but more of like a “Really bro? You did that?” and the next thing you know, they’re like “Okay, I’ll take your word for it. You can walk free.”
(Beat)
There are people on this campus who are known for sexual assault, like their personality and their character on this campus are like, “Don’t let them into this party; they’re going to be creepy and sexually assault you.” I used to not believe in that until one of my friends became that person, and I was like, “Nah, that’s bullshit,” and then I stepped away from that person because that’s kind of what you should do.
JAMES: I even went to a sexual assault training yesterday for a department and no one cared. Like everyone thought it was hilarious and like laughing about it, about all forms of sexual assault from, you know, male to male, female to male, female to female, male to female. So, it doesn’t really resonate with people unless you’ve really experienced it here. And, even then, like you have this sense of, to use Vincent’s phrase, and I really love it, the phrase is “competition of who has the biggest Stockholm Syndrome.” And I think that really applies to this because, like even after that meeting, there was someone I talked with who disagreed with what constitutes as sexual assault. And I said, matter of fact, like, I shared my story about how I was assaulted, and they replied with, “Well, you know, I’m sorry that happened to you. Um, that also happened to me, but I still disagree.” So, it was like this person had been sexually assaulted and, still, like, the gears weren’t turning. I think this is part of a larger problem in our society and you can see it. I’ve done a lot of counseling and looking into how it affected me because it did severely affect me.
PRESTON: This university in general perpetuates a significant negative outlook toward life in my opinion. I have never seen so many people sick with mental health challenges in my life, and I have been exposed to quite a few, considering that I was a trained mental health advisor and peer counselor for most of my years of high school and middle school. I have never seen so many people who are miserable in the place that they’re at.
(The lights fade out and the students stand up and join the rest at the back of the stage.)
SCENE 3: Norwich Together.
PROJECTED ON SCREEN:
What has kept you in the Corps?
The words ‘I Will Try’ haphazardly flash across the screen before being replaced with the question again.
(JAMES and PRESTON come to the seats. A light falls on them.)
JAMES: So, I’m not a quitter. Which, you know, I don’t like the term quitter because I don’t really think it describes people. But just the concept of, like, for me to be commissioned into the Air Force, I need to stay in the Corps. That’s kind of like the rule. But, um, you know, for me it’s very plain and simple that I had to do it in order to commission.
PRESTON: So, there’s two reasons that motivated me to stay in the Corps: the first being the scholarship money. Some of that scholarship money goes away if I become a civilian student. The second being that I’m not a quitter. I came here for a reason, I came here to earn my ring and to earn my ability to succeed in the military, and while that’s not a goal that I have anymore, in part, because I believe that the detachment here is discriminatory, I still believe that I earned this privilege to be here. And as a result, I needed to stay.
(Beat)
The only thing that I would say that I really truly, you know, was able to enjoy here is the friends I made, and not the friends I made in the Corps because those friends are ones that were made out of challenge, out of strife. But my civilian friends, those are the friends who will remain after I am gone, whereas my Corps friends only talk to me and interact with me on a level that is purely business.
The word ‘Friends’ blooms across the screen and is accompanied by pictures of friends.
(MICHAEL and FROZAN join JAMES and PRESTON at the chairs.)
FROZAN: Funnily enough, I was thinking about this question when I was giving a tour the other day for a group of families with prospective students who will join Norwich in the fall, and many were joining the Corps of Cadets. I told them that the Corps of Cadets creates an expectation that you will find a community once you join the Corps. It’s like a fairy tale. And it’s like the perception that we have about love. You fall in love, and then it’s not precisely those flowers and rainbows or butterflies that we expect all the time.
(Beat)
Obviously, it was a fairy tale that turned into a disappointment. But you go in, and it takes hard work, sometimes you might not even find that community in the Corps. Maybe it is on this campus, but not necessarily in the Corps. But in some ways, the Corps kind of instills that desire within you that this is the place you can find your community. But if you don’t find it in the Corps, don’t be disappointed. There are a lot of other ways that people can find their communities. And that’s what I have realized.
MICHAEL: There’s nothing else here keeping me around except the people. The experiences that I’ve gained with these people are, like, invaluable, like, I’ll literally take those to my grave. I’ll take what I’ve learned here to my grave. I’ll take what I’ve learned here to wherever I go in life. Because a lot of these people are great, a lot of these people deserve more than what they have right now. And to some of these people, they may or may not know it, but they have saved my life many times. Like both literally and figuratively. And, you know, these are the types of people who are important. There’s a saying in the military, “This type of training is the best experience you never want to have agai,n” and that’s the truth. The experiences you have with the people around you make it worth it. I can really say that there’s people here who I would take a bullet for, lay my life down for, just because I think they’re worth it.
(VINCENT finally joins the other students.)
VINCENT: What’s kept me in the Corps? Pure ignorance and lousy decision-making have kept me here. I’ve been told to leave by so many people, and because of my personality, I have always done what people told me not to do. Which is toxic as fuck. I should have left after my freshman year, but I stayed because I thought I had friends, and I’m still friends with these people, but it’s not what’s important. You must remind yourself that you’re your number one, and I have not been doing that, so by not keeping myself as a number one priority, I stayed here.
(The lights fade on the students. MICHAEL stands up and walks to the back of the stage.)
SCENE 4: Farewell Seniors!
PROJECTED ON SCREEN:
The Future of our alumni
(A light encases the 4 Senior Corps students.)
FROZAN: You’re either a person who gets disappointed and walks away from the situation or you’re the kind of person who can give the situation a second chance. Who stays there and works through and says, “No, actually, I’m going to sit here and find my place, find my grounding, and actually, I’m going to fight for it.” I think that’s who I have been, the second person, when I came to Norwich.
JAMES: I think the Corps kind of functions with a façade. They promote professionalism and all this stuff that, in the abstract, seems great, but then, functionally, they don’t do it at all. Since I was assaulted, I really dissociated from the Corps, and I’m very apathetic toward the institution as a whole.
(Beat)
I think that’s kind of what drew me toward the Air Force because they treat people with a lot more respect than, you know, some of the other branches in my opinion. And so I’m happy that I’m in a position where I can now positively affect people’s lives. Yeah, I don’t plan on keeping anything that says Corps of Cadets on it when I graduate. I plan on either giving it away, throwing it away, recycling it, or whatever.
PRESTON: I recently had the opportunity to earn my junior ring, and I chose not to buy one. Despite the fact that I’d earned it, despite the fact that I qualified for it, despite the fact that it’s a tradition and something that many people get to in spite of their challenges with this university. I decided that there was not a single part of this university that I wanted to wear on my body and represent to the world, so I chose not to buy one. I did not participate in the ceremony beyond sending off my Rook siblings by playing in the band that marched them down. Beyond that, I decided that I wasn’t going to let them mark me like that because I don’t want to represent what Norwich is perpetuating here. I don’t want to represent the morals and values that they are teaching future officers, and I don’t want to be a part of a tradition that pushes people down, ruins their mental health, and, in particular, silences women and men and their suffering regarding how they’re treated on this campus.
VINCENT: This school is one of the grimiest places I’ve ever fucking been, and I’m embarrassed to say that I go here, my friends are embarrassed to say they go here. This school is not what you think it is until you’re four years in, you’re stuck, and you can’t leave.
(The lights fade on the students. They all stand up and head to the back of the stage.)
END.
INT. An empty apartment in NYC – AFTERNOON
CHARLIE, a man of 31 with shaggy hair and a beard, dressed in jeans and a plain yellow t-shirt with pristine white sneakers, kneels on the floor of the living room. Pictures are scattered haphazardly around him, some of them ripped, others faded. Charlie holds one up to the light streaming in from the curtainless window in front of him. The picture shows Charlie, 21, without facial hair and wearing a backward baseball hat and dirty sneakers, linking arms with DANIEL, 21, both holding red plastic cups and smiling.
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EXT. A yard – NIGHT
Charlie and Daniel blink into the flash of a camera, laughing. The music from the house behind them thumps rhythmically as laser lights occasionally sweep through the yard, a result of the party. Outside is relatively quiet, but inside, a lot of noise and chatter can be heard faintly.
CHARLIE
Can you believe the turnout? I never thought we’d be those guys.
You know, known for throwing the best parties on campus.
DANIEL
I know. Cheers to us!
They CLINK glasses. The two begin walking back towards the house. Charlie stops for a second and thinks deeply before speaking. His face falls slightly.
CHARLIE
Dan?
DANIEL
Yeah?
Daniel takes a sip of his drink.
CHARLIE
What do you think about Claudia?
Daniel laughs heartily.
DANIEL
Jesus fucking Christ, Charlie. I thought you were about to ask me the meaning of life or some shit.
Lighten up, she’ll come around eventually. You just have to be the ‘cool guy’ and she’ll HAVE to go out with you.
You throw the best parties on campus, after all.
Daniel pats Charlie on the back, and Charlie smiles.
CHARLIE
Yeah, I guess you’re right.
Damn women, right?
Daniel and Charlie laugh and continue to walk up the steps of the porch and into the chaotic party inside the house.
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INT. An empty apartment in NYC – LATE AFTERNOON
Charlie puts the photo of Daniel and himself down and picks up another. He stares at it for a long moment, his head falling slowly into his chest before standing up and grabbing the tape from beside the box in front of him. Charlie tapes the picture to the bare wall opposite the windows. The sun casts a glare on the photo, settling just right so that the person in the photo is undistinguishable. Time moves on rapidly, and the sun begins to set. Charlie remains staring at the picture. It is of CLAUDIA, early 20s, her long blond hair falling over her shoulders, a mock-serious look on her face.
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INT. A scarcely furnished apartment in NYC – MIDNIGHT
The flash of the camera reflects in Claudia’s glasses. She sticks her tongue out.
CLAUDIA
Charlie! You promised you’d stop
taking unsolicited pictures of me.
CHARLIE
‘Unsolicited’? Where’d you learn that word, Clau?
Claudia pretends to laugh.
CLAUDIA
Ha-ha, very funny. I got a degree too, you know.
You’re not the only lover of the arts in this relationship.
Charlie walks over to Claudia and tucks a stray piece of hair behind her ear. Claudia looks up at Charlie.
CHARLIE
Oh, really?
CLAUDIA (whispers)
Really.
CHARLIE
What’ve you been working on lately?
Charlie sits on the couch next to Claudia as she pulls out a small green notebook. Claudia opens to a page.
CLAUDIA
It’s not finished. It’s also not very good. But I was feeling melancholy a few days ago.
CHARLIE
Nothing new there, huh?
Claudia smacks Charlie on the arm with the notebook.
CLAUDIA
It comes with the territory.
CHARLIE
Read it to me, Clau.
CLAUDIA
I hate reading the things I write out loud.
CHARLIE
I know. But I love when you read to me.
A pause.
CLAUDIA
I only do it for you. I’d do really anything for you, Charlie.
CHARLIE
I know.
Claudia clears her throat overdramatically and then begins to read. Charlie watches her closely.
CLAUDIA
“I feel content in a place I’ve always hated. Is this what growing up feels like? Or is this what complacency feels like?
There’s nothing to do and no one I want to see, but somehow, I’m okay doing nothing and seeing no one. They don’t want to see me and do nothing together anyway.
The friends and family I left behind here aren’t the people I want to sit and do nothing with anyway. They don’t fill the silence with comfort, love, and understanding. Instead, the lapse in our conversations unveils the time between us and our lives. I don’t know them, and they don’t know me.
I want to sit at a table in a restaurant, have a drink, and smile at the people I can sit with in comfortable silence. Except we won’t choose silence at the table. We’ll laugh hard and pretend to make fun of each other’s orders and talk about anything we feel like.
Someone will get shushed for saying something raunchy. Someone will get embarrassed by an anecdote someone else is telling. Someone will laugh so hard they fear they’ll spit out the sip of drink they just took. Someone will scold another in a friendly way. Someone will be uncharacteristically quiet because they’re just soaking up the feeling of being in the then and there. Someone will feel lonely for a brief second before remembering where they are, and who they’re with, and it’ll go away for a bit.
And we won’t choose silence for a little while.
But the best part is that we could.”
Charlie exhales. He’s now lying with his feet propped over the back of the couch, his head hanging off the front end.
CLAUDIA
I know. It’s not the best. Please don’t be too harsh, oh wise and effortlessly proficient writer, Charlie.
Claudia laughs, but Charlie remains staring at the ceiling.
CLAUDIA (whispers)
Please say something, Charlie.
CHARLIE
I don’t know what to say.
CLAUDIA
What do you mean?
CHARLIE
Why do you put yourself down about what you write?
CLAUDIA
Oh. I don’t know. Insecurity, I suppose. I never feel like anything I write is worth the time it’d take for others to read it. Or listen to it.
CHARLIE
But the time you spent writing it mattered?
CLAUDIA
Yeah, it did. A lot.
CHARLIE
Then it matters to the people you wrote about.
I’m one of them, right?
Claudia smiles, and Charlie responds with his own wide smile.
CLAUDIA
You are.
CHARLIE
Which one?
CLAUDIA
Guess.
CHARLIE
Hmmmm…
Charlie puts his hand on his chin. He then spins around and sits upright on the couch, staring at Claudia.
CHARLIE
The one telling the embarrassing anecdote.
I bet it was about Lily.
CLAUDIA
Oh, absolutely. She always did the wildest shit in college. I remember the one time she broke into that mean old biology professor’s office to steal his beloved $200 red fountain pen.
The two laugh heartily. Claudia looks out the dark window into the black night. She sees her reflection looking back.
CHARLIE
Clau?
Claudia turns to look at Charlie, her expression sad as if she already knows what Charlie is going to ask.
CLAUDIA
Yeah?
CHARLIE
Which one was Scarlett?
Claudia stands and walks over to the window. She stares out.
CLAUDIA
I don’t want to talk about this anymore.
CHARLIE
We can’t ignore it forever, Claudia.
If we don’t talk about it, we’ll never be able to get over it.
Claudia whips around, tears streaming down her face, an accusatory finger pointed at Charlie.
CLAUDIA
It’s not just something we ‘get over,’ Charlie. God, I can’t believe you’d be so fucking insensitive. She was our friend. She was so important to the group!
CLAUDIA (voice breaking)
She was so important.
Claudia begins to sob. She falls slowly to the floor. Charlie remains on the couch, staring out the window where Claudia had just been standing. The lights dim and the only thing visible is Charlie’s darkened reflection in the window.
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INT. An empty apartment in NYC – NIGHT
Charlie is staring out the window, his reflection staring back. Charlie sinks down the wall, tears in his eyes. A picture on the other side of the room, scattered on the floor, catches his attention. Charlie crawls to the picture and picks it up with shaking hands. The only light is the full moon shining in through the window. The picture is of Daniel, Claudia, LILY, SCARLETT, and MONROE all smiling, laughing, and lounging on a deck, the ocean in the background.
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EXT. The deck of a big house in Rhode Island – AFTERNOON
The friends laugh as Charlie lowers a Polaroid camera and waits for the picture to print and reveal itself. He shakes the picture to make it develop faster, eager to see the outcome.
LILY
You’re not supposed to shake them, Charlie!
MONROE
Yeah! It ruins them. Shakes the ink
around or some sciencey shit like that.
Charlie quits shaking the picture and stares at the two with an accusatory stare.
CHARLIE
Then why do they do it in the movies, huh?
LILY
Because those are the MOVIES. Everything is exaggerated to keep the audience entertained. I thought you’d know that given your proclivity to binge-watching and being a self-proclaimed cinephile.
Claudia walks over to Charlie and takes the picture from his hands. She stares at it as if inspecting something under a magnifying glass.
CLAUDIA
Do I really look like that? Jesus.
CHARLIE
I think you look fine.
CLAUDIA
Of course you do. You have to.
Claudia gets on her tiptoes and kisses Charlie on the cheek. Scarlett observes the encounters silently, a faint smile on her face.
DANIEL
What’re you thinking about, Scar? You’ve
been so quiet lately. What’s all that about?
Scarlett looks up into Daniel’s looming figure and shrinks down in the chair she is sitting in.
SCARLETT
Overwhelmed, I suppose.
DANIEL
By what? The school year is finished.
Why can’t you enjoy summer? You’ve kind
of been a downer on this trip.
LILY
Daniel, that’s not fucking cool. What’s your problem? You’ve been acting more like a dick recently. What’s all that about?
DANIEL
I just don’t understand. One minute you’re laughing, and the next it’s like a switch turns on, and you barely talk or do anything with us.
Scarlett turns her head to stare at the ocean. Charlie walks over to Dan and puts his hand on his shoulder.
CHARLIE
Come on, man. It was a hard
semester for everyone. Cut her some slack.
Daniel waves his hand at Scarlett and walks into the house to get a beer. Scarlett continues to stare at the ocean. Charlie, Claudia, Monroe, and Lily look at each other.
MONROE
Who’s going to tell him he’s the downer?
You know it’s not your fault, Scar.
Daniel has never taken breakups well.
LILY
Yeah. He’ll come around eventually.
He just needs time.
Claudia walks to Scarlett and whispers in her ear.
CLAUDIA (whispers)
Do you want to walk with me to the shore?
SCARLETT (whispers)
Yes. Please.
Scarlett begins to cry lightly as the two walk to the deck stairs and down towards the faraway shore. Daniel slides the door open and watches them go as he sips on his drink.
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EXT. A small beach – AFTERNOON
Scarlett sits with her legs pulled up to her chest, crying in earnest. Claudia stares out at the ocean as Scarlett cries. The ocean pulls at the sand rhythmically. The wind is quiet, and faint laughter can be heard from the house’s direction.
CLAUDIA
Daniel has always had a way with words, huh?
Scarlett lets out a bitter laugh and sniffles. She wipes away her tears.
SCARLETT
Yeah. It used to be something I liked
about him. How do you and Charlie do it?
CLAUDIA
Do what?
SCARLETT
Make it work so effortlessly.
CLAUDIA
It isn’t effortless. Nothing ever is.
They both stare at the rising tide, the silence broken by the crashing waves and laughter.
SCARLETT (whispering)
I think you’re wrong.
Claudia turns to look at Scarlett, who is still staring at the ocean.
CLAUDIA
About what?
SCARLETT
I think some things can be effortless.
CLAUDIA
Like what?
SCARLETT
Like floating.
Claudia turns fully to look at Scarlett, who also turns slightly but does not meet Claudia’s concerned stare.
CLAUDIA
Have you kept up with your appointments
and medications?
SCARLETT
No. I don’t think they work, really.
CLAUDIA
Oh, Scar. You promised you’d really try
this time. You promised you’d try to be better.
Scarlett turns to look at Claudia.
SCARLETT
Claudia, sometimes I don’t want to be better.
CLAUDIA
Now, what the hell does that mean?
SCARLETT
I guess I don’t really know.
Claudia, tears rolling down her cheeks, throws her hands up and huffs a sigh.
CLAUDIA
You know, I’ve really tried.
But I can’t help someone who doesn’t want it. Scarlett, I care about you. We all do. Even Daniel. You’re important. You are so important to the group. Please. Don’t give up on us.
SCARLETT
I know, Clau. Thank you.
Would it be okay if I sat here alone for a while?
Scarlett hugs Claudia and the two sit for a few seconds longer before Claudia nods and gets up to leave.
CLAUDIA
You’ll always be important to the people
who care to know you.
Scarlett laughs heartily. Claudia joins in.
SCARLETT
How very English major of you.
Claudia smiles briefly and then turns to the house. Her smile drops once she is facing the house. Scarlett’s falls once Claudia’s back is to her.
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INT. An empty apartment in NYC – NIGHT
Charlie rips the picture in half and then rips it again and again. He throws the pieces into the air like confetti and watches as they glide to the floor.
Charlie pulls a journal and a pen out of the box. He repositions himself so the moonlight is a makeshift lamp as he opens to a blank page and begins to write.
CHARLIE (V.O.)
Everything loses its luster after 21.
Relationships, friendships, college. Drinking.
Gambling. R-rated movies.
You can do anything, and therefore, nothing
is as pleasant as your first legal drink.
As your first try at a casino.
As the uncertainty of young, new romances.
As a billowing figure with the see-through essence of a ghost, Claudia appears next to Charlie while he writes and looks over his shoulder.
CHARLIE (V.O.)
I think somewhere I fucked it all up.
I can’t tell when or where, but
somewhere it fell apart.
CLAUDIA
Charlie, you never took responsibility for
the parts you played in other’s unhappiness.
Charlie does not react to Claudia’s memory talking to him.
CHARLIE
You never did either, Clau.
You weren’t without blame just because
you-
CLAUDIA
Tried more than the rest of you?
I know that.
CHARLIE
Well, you never acted like you knew.
It was always Daniel’s fault.
Or mine. Or Monroe’s for never making a more profound effort. You live in melancholy, Claudia. She lived in sadness. They’re different.
Claudia laughs quietly, and it echoes around the apartment.
CLAUDIA
I’m not even actually here and you’re still arguing about this?
God, Charlie. How pathetic are you?
CHARLIE
I want you to leave.
Claudia begins to fade.
CLAUDIA
You’ll always be alone, living in the same safe places you called home nine years ago. I once wrote about finding a home in other people and not some random place. I see it didn’t stick with you.
Nothing ever did.
The apartment goes silent. Charlie is staring down at the journal page, now wet with tears. They fall silently from his eyes as the sounds of the city outside slowly fade in. A car honks its horn, a dog barks, a door slams shut, someone far away yells.
Charlie begins to write again.
CHARLIE (V.O.)
I think Stephen King had it wrong in The Body. It’s not, “I never had any friends later on like the ones I had when I was 12 – Jesus, did you?”
I think it’s rather something like, “I never had any friends later on like the ones I had when I was 21 – Jesus, did anyone?”
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EXT. The house in Rhode Island – AFTERNOON
All the friends laugh at Lily’s overexaggerated dance moves to a popular song. Monroe hugs Lily closely as they dance together.
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INT. The scarcely furnished apartment in NYC – MIDNIGHT
Claudia smiles up at Charlie as he leans in to kiss her. The two fall back on the couch giggling, two glasses of wine on the coffee table. A car horn honks outside.
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EXT. A yard – NIGHT
Monroe, Lily, Scarlett, Claudia, Charlie, and Daniel pose in front of the house, wide smiles on their faces, cups and bottles in their hands. Daniel kisses Scarlett as Lily makes a fake disgusted face. The friends laugh. Music blasts out into the yard as the front door opens, and someone walks outside.
Charlie turns to stare at the door and catches his reflection in a window, his friends behind him smiling and drinking as they talk.
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INT. An empty apartment in NYC – DAWN
Charlie stands staring out the window into the brightening city beyond. His reflection is not easily seen. Eventually he turns and packs up the box and walks out the door. The picture of Claudia remains taped to the wall. The remnants of the picture on the porch lay scattered on the floor. Scarlett stares up at the ceiling. Waves are heard faintly.
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EXT. The Atlantic Ocean – DUSK
Scarlett floats silently further and further out towards the sunset, her eyes staring at the darkening sky as her head slowly sinks below the surface.
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BLACK.
The wave sounds fade.
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CREDITS
CHARACTERS:
MARIANA: Preppy, popular, and intelligent. Cunning with a temper and has just had a spat with her current boyfriend.
SHELBY: Quiet and reserved. Frequently is perceived as being a grunge groupie but really just can’t afford many clothes. Very intelligent but makes poor decisions.
REYNIE: Close friend with MARIANA.
VERONIQUE: Close friend with MARIANA.
SCENE:
Crumbling old warehouse. Piles of scrapped concrete and rusting metal lying around. The space is dark except for a flickering candle and a single pendant light. The door on the far right is padlocked shut, and there is a chair in the center. A backpack is hidden in the shadows.
AT RISE:
A woman dressed in dark clothing with a loose jacket and long hair is pacing just out of the view of the light. The other person in the room is a woman tied to the chair, struggling. She seems to be wearing a skirt and blouse. Her blazer is ripped, and her medium-length hair is coming out of her neatly braided updo.
MARIANA
(Frantically strains against ropes that appear to be well-tied)
Who’s there?! Why am I tied here?! Hello?!
SHELBY
I figured that you were smarter than this.
(MARIANA stops struggling)
MARIANA
Who the hell are you? Come out here! Why are you doing this to me?
SHELBY
No wonder you’re so lonely. You’re predictable. Annoyingly so. (Sighs) I had thought this would be rather fun.
MARIANA
(MARIANA nearly topples the chair)
I don’t know who you are but let me go! My boyfriend will be looking for me! LET ME GO!
SHELBY
(SHELBY paces slowly around MARIANA in circles, just outside of the range of the light)
Oh, MARIANA. Did you think I don’t know? You have no boyfriend. No one’s looking for you.
MARIANA
(MARIANA goes still. Her face is gaunt, a haunted look plastered across it)
SHELBY
You’re all alone. With me.
MARIANA
(MARIANA calms down some. SHELBY stops just behind her chair)
What do you want?
SHELBY
I just want to watch you struggle. To watch you squirm. Listen to your insides boil when you think of what you did. I want to watch you burn.
MARIANA
(MARIANA begins to struggle again as the stranger moves closer to the edge of the light, her feet visible)
What are you talking about, you crazy, delusional maniac?!
SHELBY
(SHELBY begins to massage MARIANA’s shoulders mockingly. MARIANA strains to look at her)
Out partying. Pretty women. Handsome men. Glowing lights. Drink after drink. Martini. Cabernet. Sex on the Beach. You name it, someone bought it for you.
(SHELBY stops massaging MARIANA’s shoulders and curls a bit of MARIANA’s hair around her finger)
The bathroom wasn’t long after, was it? Can’t keep all that liquid in, only makes sense.
MARIANA
(MARIANA begins struggling angrily.)
Is there a point to this?! I’ve got places to be.
SHELBY
You didn’t like what you saw in there, did you?
MARIANA
I don’t know what you’re talking about.
SHELBY
He was kissing her, wasn’t he?
(SHELBY brushes MARIANA’s hair away from one shoulder. MARIANA flails away, rocking the chair)
MARIANA
Yes.
SHELBY
That really hurt, didn’t it? The man of your dreams kissing up on another woman? Especially at a shitty party, how pathetic.
MARIANA
Let me go! You’re a whole psychopath!
(MARIANA struggles and half topples the chair, slamming the legs hard onto the floor to where it appears to knock the wind out of her)
SHELBY
Did you enjoy it, Mari?
MARIANA
(MARIANNA breathes hard)
Enjoy what?! I swear to God, let me go! Tying people up to ask about their scummy boyfriends?! Who the hell are you?! Why do you care that Michael is a shitty human being?!
SHELBY
Do you remember your seventh birthday party in 1st grade?
(silence)
Your mom promised to bring cupcakes to class. And you told everyone, didn’t you? And when the time came, where was she? Passed out drunk. Just where you’d find her when you got home that night.
MARIANA
Please stop talking.
SHELBY
But that wasn’t all that made you such a psycho. Your dad left. Your uncle tou-
MARIANA
Don’t say another damn word you son of a bitch!
(explodes)
SHELBY
How do you know all this?
(sounds like she’s close to crying)
SHELBY
(SHELBY escalates to a yell. She steps into the light revealing a beautiful woman)
I know, Mariana Mason, because I’ve spent my whole life behind every corner waiting for you to notice me. And now, because you’re stupid and rash, I’ve got to find a place to hide dead bodies!
MARIANA
(MARIANA’s mouth hangs open.)
Shelby?
SHELBY
Yeah, Shelby. Shelby who you’ve said maybe a total of five kind words to. Shelby who is stupid enough to hide bodies for the girl who never noticed her!
(SHELBY lunges forward and slams her arms on MARIANA’s, pressing the chair into a lean)
I covered your ass countless times. Do you think it’s fucking easy cleaning up blood? Hiding bodies?!
MARIANA
I…I um….I
SHELBY
Jesus Christ! Cut the princess act already! I cleaned up all of your messes! How in the hell the cops didn’t figure it out it was you without my help, I couldn’t even fathom!
MARIANA
How did you find out I killed them?
SHELBY
I watched you do it. You know, on the most coincidentally worst fucking day of my life, I showed up at your house on the day you killed Chelsea. Yeah, flowers and everything.
(SHELBY paces and talks with her hands, pausing for dramatic effect)
Then, like the complete dumbass you are, you buried her under your fence! No lime, no forensic countermeasures! Complete and utter idiocy!
MARIANA
You were the shadowy figure in my backyard!
(SHELBY gestures like “Well, duh!”)
How…. how many have you hidden?
SHELBY
All of them. You kind of suck at cleaning up your messes.
MARIANA
Why do you do it? You don’t even know me! Hiding bodies! You’re crazy!
SHELBY
(SHELBY pulls a knife off her belt)
Well, I told you. I’ve been in love with you since we were kids. And, besides, I do the same for my mom.
MARIANA
You’re a creep.
SHELBY
(SHELBY leans forward and cuts MARIANA’s bonds)
Maybe. But you’re a serial killer. And you’ll do it again.
(SHELBY clips her knife back to her belt)
MARIANA
(MARIANA rubs her wrists but remains in the chair)
You’re letting me go?
SHELBY
I needed to keep you here until the cops finished searching your residence. And long enough that you could say you were kidnapped during the period that Alex was found missing. Keep you out of their suspect pool. They won’t find his body, but you’re free to go.
MARIANA
(MARIANA hesitantly gets up from the chair. She takes a step after SHELBY.)
You’ve been hiding my bodies for me?
SHELBY
(SHELBY turns to look at MARIANA)
You’re stupid. But I guess whatever form of puppy dog love I’ve got running through my veins means that I clean up after the women in my life for all their psychopathic aims. Not your fault. Do a better job next time.
(SHELBY picks up a backpack and slings it onto her shoulders.)
I guess I’ll see you on Monday.
(SHELBY exits through the door STAGE RIGHT)
MARIANA
(MARIANA gives a feeble wave)
Bye…
SCENE TWO
SCENE:
The school hallway after class. It’s busy with groups of other classmates. Four doors flank the hallway, and MARIANNA and her friends exit the farthest one and begin walking down the hall from STAGE RIGHT. SHELBY is observing them from across the hallway with a smug look on her face.
MARIANA
I am fine, you guys! I don’t even know who my kidnapper was! I am just worried about Michael.
REYNIE
I can’t even imagine being kidnapped! I’d be terrified!
VERONIQUE
You’re so brave, Mari!
(The group continues to walk down the hall)
SHELBY
Oh, yes, how brave. Mariana, do tell us how you managed to escape.
VERONIQUE
Ew! Its Smellby!
SHELBY
Real original, Veronique.
REYNIE
Why are you even talking to us?
SHELBY
I just wanted the scoop on her kidnapping, like everybody else.
VERONIQUE
We don’t talk to disgusting goth losers like you, and, besides, everyone knows that Mariana escaped because she’s so amazing.
(MARIANA flinches visibly)
SHELBY
Oh, really? Do tell, Marianna? What was the kidnapper like? And where’s Michael? I haven’t seen him around lately.
MARIANNA
I didn-
VERONIQUE
Are you stupid, Smellby?! She just said she didn’t see her captor! The police even searched the area!
REYNIE
Yeah! And you haven’t heard? Michael is missing! Why would you bring that up? Are you dumb and trying to upset Marianna?
MARIANNA
Guys, stop.
(SHELBY pushes off the locker and starts walking in the opposite direction)
SHELBY
Don’t bother, Mari. (smugly singsonging) I’ll see you later.
(MARIANA freezes)
REYNIE
Did she just call you Mari?
VERONIQUE
I’m gonna make sure she gets a good pounding later. I’ve got Joey on Snapchat.
(begins typing rapidly on her cellphone)
MARIANA
Don’t bother, Veronique. I’ll handle it on my own.
CLOSE CURTAIN.
Characters:
LEONARD LINMORE: (32) He has a daughter, MATILDA LINMORE, and parents waiting for him to get home from war. He wants nothing more than to have the war end so he can go home to see his family again. He and Joseph are close friends, even considering him his brother, as they have known each other since childhood.
JOSEPH MURPHY: (31) Joined the military to die with meaning and purpose. He has a very morbid outlook on life, with no living, blood-related family. He harbors jealousy toward LEONARD LINMORE and holds on to guilt from when he lived with and depended on the Linmores.
MATILDA LINMORE: (10) LEONARD LINMORE’s daughter.
UNNAMED SOLDIER: He is a part of the same squad as LEONARD LINMORE and JOSEPH MURPHY.
Core Idea: The friends are writing letters to those who would miss them should they die in the war when Joseph slips up and says that he joined the military to die, since he had no one back home. Leonard is livid to hear that Joseph is basically throwing his life away and that he means nothing to him. Joseph dies that same day, by an artillery shell. Leonard returns home, and it’s been a year since Joseph’s death. He has carried the letter his friend wrote to him all this time and has only just gotten around to reading it. At the end, Joseph signs the letter as “friend and brother.” This whole script is centered around the idea of survivor’s guilt from Leonard’s point of view.
AT RISE: On the left of the stage a disheveled LEONARD LINMORE sits slumped on a recliner at home. The stage is dark except for a cold spotlight on LEONARD. He holds a fragile, overly folded paper in shaky hands. This paper holds some of the last thoughts of the man he saw as a brother. He takes some deep breaths, steeling himself for what he’s about to read.
LEONARD: “December 19, 1943. Hey Lennie, guess if you’re reading this, then I beat you to the finish line. You were right in the end; I did have someone to write to. I don’t even know what to write, but hell – if I’m gonna die….”
[There is a brief pause. Leonard continues reading]
“…if I’m gonna die…”
[A pause again, before he crumples, folds the paper, and puts it into his jacket pocket. He holds his head in his hands.
Dammit, Joseph….
[In the darkness JOSEPH speaks as he runs up to where LEONARD is. He’s sort of shout-whispering.]
JOSEPH: Hey Lennie—
[Present day LEONARD looks up sharply and slowly as we see him fall back into their fox hole. LEONARD takes on a more carefree attitude as he becomes LEONARD from the past.]
Ya’ know when the new unit is gonna show with that winter gear? Don’t get me wrong, I’m willing to give my life for my country, but making me freeze my ass off is just cruel.
LEONARD: Well, your ass is just gonna have to suck it up for another two days. They’re supposed to be here by then, but with the way the weather’s been lookin’ recently … well, we’ll see.
JOSEPH: Yeah, well, if they don’t show by then, all they’re gonna be findin’ is a buncha’ frozen men.
[LEONARD gives a grunt of agreement, and the men share a laugh. LEONARD wistfully speaks up first.]
LEONARD: If you weren’t here, what’d you be doing right now, Joe?
JOSEPH: Again, with this, man, c’mon-
LEONARD: No, no, I’m being serious here.
JOSEPH: It’s a waste of time thinkin’ ‘bout it, Len.
LEONARD: Not like we got anything better to do right now.
[There’s a heavy pause. JOSEPH resolutely stays silent. LEONARD takes a moment to look at his friend before he speaks again]
LEONARD: Hey, you remember when we were in school, and they asked us, “Where do you see yourself in 10 years”?
JOSEPH: [answers tentatively] Yea, what ‘bout it?
LEONARD: Well, remember how I said I was gonna be a movie star, and there were only two people who didn’t laugh an’ call me insane?
[He nudges JOSEPH’s shoulder, both grinning over the memory]
JOSEPH: Course Len. Peg and I knew you were insane long before then.
LEONARD: Well then remember what you said after me?
JOSEPH: I remember making a fool of myself for you is what I remember.
LEONARD: [in a mocking/joking tone] “Well, I wanna join the circus and fly with the elephants.”
JOSEPH: [he’s grinning as he gestures to where they are] Oh boy, did I get one hell of a circus.
LEONARD: I’m surprised that you didn’t get a paddling for that.
JOSEPH: I’m surprised Peggy stayed with you after that.
LEONARD: [he smirks as he shrugs and says] Worked out in the end, didn’t it? At least I didn’t scare off any possible sweethearts saying, “I wanna join the circus”.
JOSEPH: Hey, I never lied. I just didn’t say which kinda circus I saw myself joinin’.
LEONARD: [still smiling] I’m sure all of us had life planned out before this. I would have given just ’bout anything to meet the likes of Greta Garbo, maybe even Rita Hayworth, rather than looking at a picture—if you know what I mean…
[He playfully nudges JOSEPH, and the men share a laugh]
JOSEPH: Rita Hayworth, really?
LEONARD: What’d ya mean “really”? You tellin’ me you wouldn’t wanna make time with someone like her?
JOSEPH: Not what I’m saying at all! I just meant you could do better than Hayworth. Hell, you did do better than Hayworth by marrying Peggy. Now that, that was a woman.
[There is a sad tone to the men’s laughter this time.]
LEONARD: Yeah, there’s never gonna be another woman quite like Peggy. It’s strange but even after five years…. I still wake up some mornings and expect her to be back in bed with me, but then I remember that she’s [a pause] gone. God, I miss her, ya know.
JOSEPH: [He thinks on this a moment.] She was something else Lennie… and man do I miss her cooking—
[at that LEONARD chuckles. JOSEPH chuckles right along with him.]
-If it wasn’t for her lunches, I’m sure I would’ve been dead by now from my own cooking. I couldn’t make any kinda food for shit then.
LEONARD: Then?! You still can’t cook for shit now!
[All of a sudden JOSEPH stops laughing and becomes eerily serious.]
JOSEPH: Now. Now? NOW?!
[LEONARD recoils at JOSEPH’s sudden outburst]
JOSEPH: I’m dead now Len! I died for you, for our home and you’ve only just read the letter?! I’ve been dead for a year! You’re weak, Linmore!
[LEONARD stares at JOSEPH in disbelief. As JOSEPH says these things, LEONARD is curling into himself and covering his ears]
LEONARD: Stop it, Joe! Please!
JOSEPH: I guess I really did mean so little to you!
LEONARD: Stop!
[At this point LEONARD has his eyes shut tight as well. JOSEPH makes a slow and menacing exit, but continues to speak off-stage]
JOSEPH: You should be here with me, Linmore! You should be dead too.
LEONARD: [He stands and shouts at the spot where JOSEPH was] I WISH I WAS, JOE!
[As LEONARD opens his eyes, he realizes JOSEPH is gone. Slowly Leonard comes to terms that it was all in his head, as he runs a hand over his face and looks around. He goes back to where he was at the beginning of the script and pulls the letter from his pocket. After a deep breath, he unfolds the letter and with a shaky breath he begins to read again]
LEONARD: “—I don’t even know what to write, but, hell, if I’m gonna die, [LEONARD pauses here again, takes a deep breath and continues] I might as well spill it to you. I’m jealous of you, Lennie. You got everything I wanted outta life. You have your parents, friends, hell, you had an amazing wife, and the sweetest kid a man could ask for. I never had any of that. Never had any of those worthwhile connections… ’cept for you. Remember when we were kids, and you would drag me ‘round everywhere? [LEONARD huffs a sad laugh at the memory] You and your family gave me everything I have. Every day of living there, I felt guilty cause I had nothing to give your parents for the kindness they showed me. That was until the draft came, and I realized that this was my chance. I could make it all worth it by being a soldier. I can hear you now about how this is all crap, that I never had anything to prove. But this is all I have, Len. I guess it was a good thing we fought earlier. I don’t think I’d have written this otherwise… [At this he drifts off into memory again. He folds and places the paper into his chest pocket again.]
JOESPH: [Once again running up to LEONARD, this time with some paper] Hey, Lennie, the boys wanted to write those letters home. I told them it was a waste ’ of time, but they insisted… Here, I grabbed you paper.
[JOSEPH gives a confused-looking LEONARD a small piece of paper. As LEONARD takes it, he becomes LEONARD of the past again. JOSEPH holds the paper, playing with it rather than writing.]
LEONARD: Give the guys a break. I can’t blame them for wantin’ to write home with the way this winter is shaping up to be.
JOSEPH: Yeah, well, that doesn’t change the facts. I bet half of these letters don’t even get to the person they’re meant to, so what’s the point?
LEONARD: C’mon, Joe, it’s just a letter.
[There is awkward pause as JOSEPH seems to avoid responding. The only sound is LEONARD scribbling away on his paper as he begins to write.]
LEONARD: Alright then, Joe, so who are you writin’ to then?
JOSEPH: No one really… [JOSEPH deflects quickly, still playing with the paper in his hand] What about you, who you writin’ to?
LEONARD: I’m writing to Mattie. Guess I’ll write to Mom and Pop too, while I’m at it. I’m telling Mattie that Dad’s gonna come home, so is Uncle Joe [LEONARD nudges JOSEPH’s shoulder], and that everything’s gonna be just fine.
[There’s an odd beat of silence as the men respectively think about life after the war. It seems like a distant dream at this point for one; for the other, it’s an impossible image.]
LEONARD: What’d you say to a Lucky? Pops sent me a carton a while back, and I never got to smoke ’em. I was gonna give Richie a pack yesterday, but then his hole got overrun, and he…
[Another beat passes. Leonard obviously mourns his friend, Richie, and Joseph feels conflicted over how to feel.]
JOSEPH: Men die every day here, Len. Best we can do is remember them and make sure they didn’t die for nothin’. At least Richie died the best way a man could during these times. He gave his life for his country and—
LEONARD: —but what about his family! What about those who were waiting for their son or husband or brother or whatever …to get back home…. Jesus, Joseph….
[An awkward and tense moment passes between the men as LEONARD is upset over JOSEPH’s lack of empathy]
LEONARD: I mean, think about it, man, how would you feel knowing that everyone is waiting for you to get back, and then you don’t show? Imagine [JOSEPH grows more visibly uncomfortable and aggravated as he goes on] having some strangers show up at your door, tellin’ ’em you died thousands of miles away in some God-forsaken hole in the ground. Imagine—
JOSEPH: STOP! Just stop! Look, I get you’ve got a family; you’ve got something to look forward to! Well, I don’t! I don’t, man!
[There’s a short silence.]
JOSEPH: You’ve got people waitin’ on you, and that’s great, but what do people like ME have?! Nothing! I’VE GOT FUCKING NOTHING!
[LEONARD takes these words in. The more JOSEPH talks, the more he becomes hurt and upset. JOSEPH knows that he shouldn’t have lashed out at his friend, but there is no going back now.]
LEONARD: Wha-What about Mom and Pops? WHAT ABOUT MATTIE?! WHAT ABOUT ME?! YOUR FAMILY?! Do we mean anything to you?
[JOSEPH remains silent.]
LEONARD: I thought we were…. [There’s a pause as LEONARD swallows and tentatively continues.] I thought we were family. I thought we were brothers.
[There is a tense pause before JOSEPH speaks with conviction.]
JOSEPH: I’m not like you, Linmore. No parents, no daughter [another short pause] … and I don’t have any brothers. My people are here, ready to give their lives when necessary.
[As he says this, he starts to walk away from LEONARD. LEONARD tries to call out to him and run to grab him, but it’s as if he is fighting an invisible force that’s keeping him in place.]
LEONARD: JOE! JOE COME BACK! JOSEPH PLEASE!
[Once JOSEPH is gone, LEONARD collapses.]
LEONARD: Joseph, please come back!
[There is a moment of silence.]
LEONARD: PLEASE! [Said desperately.]
[LEONARD is a mess as a young girl enters. It is MATILDA, his daughter. She sees her father crying.]
MATILDA: Dad, what’s wrong?!
LEONARD: Nothing, sweetheart, just… just thinking about someone. You remember, Uncle Joe, right?
[MATILDA nods in response]
LEONARD: You remember how we said goodbye to him?
[MATILDA nods, slowly and sadly.]
LEONARD: Well, I was just reading a letter he wrote me, and… and I…I… [He drifts off as another memory surfaces.]
[MATILDA exits as the memory begins and JOSEPH returns to the stage. This is it, JOSEPH MURPHY’s final moments alive. LEONARD must watch his best friend, his brother, die right before his eyes while unable to stop it. LEONARD has the piece of paper he had been writing on, and we see him write things down only to scratch them out. He gets more and more frustrated each time he scratches something out. He gets fed up eventually.]
LEONARD: Damnit, Joe! [LEONARD sighs heavily, letting his head fall into his hands. As he raises his head, he rubs his eyes and pinches the bridge of his nose. An UNNAMED SOLDIER enters.]
UNNAMED SOLDIER: Hey, Linmore, Murphy’s looking for you. Said he’s got somethin’ to give you.
LEONARD: [Confused and somewhat surprised about this] Alright… [LEONARD pauses, shakes his head and continues.] Uh, right, how far is he?
UNNAMED SOLDIER: ’Bout 50 feet down the line-
[Their conversation is interrupted by the sound of gunfire and the boom of the heavy artillery.]
UNNAMED SOLDIER: Fuck! I gotta get back to my position; cover me.
[The UNNAMED SOLDIER exits. We hear JOSEPH call desperately from offstage to the sound of gunfire and artillery shells going off.]
JOSEPH: LENNIE!!
[LEONARD stands quickly, trying to escape the spotlight he’s in. He looks off to the side of the stage from where we heard JOSEPH call from.]
LEONARD: JOSEPH—
[LEONARD’s call is cut off by the sound of an artillery shell going off (on one side of the stage, quite loud) and JOSEPH giving a short cry of pain. At the same time, we see a red light come from the side that all the noise came from, signifying JOSEPH’s death. LEONARD sits back down; he’s shaking and seems to be struggling for air. He has the letter back out, and it appears that he’s having difficulty even holding onto it. MATILDA reenters quickly as she rushes over to her dad. She kneels beside him and very tentative and cautiously she rests her hand on the one holding the letter. LEONARD jumps a bit at this, but after looking at the point of contact and seeing his daughter, LEONARD comes back to the present. He looks around quickly, taking in his environment as he takes the letter into his other hand and grasps MATILDA’s hand even tighter. MATILDA speaks quietly, her words choked as if she could cry any moment.]
MATILDA: I miss him too, Dad.
[LEONARD takes a deep breath.]
LEONARD: I … I … [He seems to be at a loss for words. His hand with the letter is still shaking slightly. MATILDA grips his hand and squeezes lightly. He looks down at her, and she nods toward the letter.]
MATILDA: Read the rest of it to me.
LEONARD: [Stunned for a moment, he squeezes her hand back.] Of course.
[They sit there as LEONARD gets ready to read the letter again. MATILDA keeps her hands wrapped around his.]
LEONARD: “I guess it was a good thing we fought earlier. I don’t think I’d have written this otherwise, and I don’t think I would have realized I was wrong. You were right! I do have a family and something to return to, and I’m sorry that I can’t be there with you now if you’re reading this. Tell Mom and Pops I love them, and I’m sorry for all the trouble they’ve gone through for me. And tell Mattie that I left her a whole tin of candies in my old room, in the back of the dresser.
[At this MATILDA looks up at LEONARD and then down at their hands, silently asking if he’d be okay without her. He smiles—it’s a little weary—and nods his head in the direction of offstage. She gets up, squeezes his hand once more, and then exits. His eyes follow her exit, his smile becoming sadder. He looks back to the paper and reads again.]
LEONARD: Lennie, all I can say is that I’m sorry for everything. I’m sorry for blaming you and being jealous of everything you had. Keep living, Leonard. Don’t stop because of me.
[There is a pause before LEONARD reads the last line.]
LEONARD: Your friend… and brother.
[LEONARD folds the paper and places it on the piece of furniture he was sitting on earlier in the script. He lets out what sounds like a laugh and a sob, finally feeling a weight lift off his shoulders. Across the stage, JOSEPH enters, and the men look at one another. Off stage, MATILDA can be heard.]
MATILDA: DAD, UNCLE JOE LEFT US SO MANY CANDIES! COME HAVE SOME! GRANDMA, GRANDPA, UNCLE JOE… [her voice fades]
[The men look off in the direction of MATILDA’s voice and then back to one another. JOSEPH smiles and is the first to speak.]
JOSEPH: See ya around, brother.
[JOSEPH slowly and calmly makes his way off stage. This time LEONARD does not move to chase after JOSEPH, instead he stands where he is calmly. He steps out of the spotlight, and as he does, the whole stage is lit in a warm yellow/orange light. He smiles at the spot where JOSEPH was.]
LEONARD: Yeah… see ya around.
fin
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